hel0 maggots.
another day with a different life.
yes looks are decieving people.
dont ever judge a book by its cover.
promised someone important that.
ii will come to school with a smile.
yes ii did that. and people thought its real.
haah sorry to say but its not.
its really truely hard to keep that mask on.
whole day ii was acting nice and smiling.
but no one knows whats happening in me.
ive really grown weaker and depressed.
it feels that someone just tore out my heart.
but no matter what it was still there.

hold on. amin just called.
. . . .
okayy im back.

ii dont really know how to say this but.
ii will just say it anyway.
to see him smile to see her laugh.
she brings so much to you.
you both are meant for each other.
but then you said that ii gotta conquer my fears.
but you dont understand okayy.
im just like dewi because she told me her story.
my fear is loosing you.
it may not seem like it.
and you may not really feel it but.
do you know that we have drifted far apart ? .
even dewi knows that okayy ? .
she said the same thing happened to her once.
and it took her quite long to forget about it.
ive lost my bestie last time and now what ? .
im gonna lose my twin ? .
but ii told dewi this too.
if ii have to sacrifice my other self to see you this happy.
then ii will by all means do it.
its really rare to see you like this.
soo ii want you to remain this happy.
dont care if im sad or blue.
ii just want you to stay this way.
you cant change people but you can change yourself.
ii dont care now if ii feel alone.
to have a heart hurts so much. why have it anyway ? .
to have emotions is just a burden.
if thats how im gona try to forget about this.
then ii shall not feel anything or have everything.
it seems that evrything ii ever own is lost.
ii think its better just to remain this way.
while talking to you just now. ii was halfway breaking.
ii tried to keep it in as much as ii could.
ii am no longer strong. ive just become nothing.
that mask has a limit.
that smile was just for others to smile.
but after school. im totally emo. just ask dewi.
she should know what ii mean.
ask her what ii told her just now while walking.
ask her why ii feel this way.
ii dont know how to express it anymore.
now that youve hung up. my tears are falling.
okayy ive had enough. ii gotta go.
ii know youve told me ii had friends who care.
ii know that. but for now ii gotta be alone.
gosh this is gonna b a crappy birthday.
its just gonna suck. BIG TIME.
oh yea dude. tagg me already ! .
rocker out.

AYESHA Y

I dont entertain no-lifes
read, tag, be nice.
or Leave

honeylovers since 03.02.2009
No-life clan? Click.

Im Ayesha and i keep pepper spray in my back pocket *smirk*

Im nice & fun, but test me & see how long the nice-ness last

I have awesome BFFs; GILERRS!

My J-friends call me Aya-chan & did i mention? Im a japanese-obsessed-girl :D

Obsession for turtles, a passion for writing & a love for ALL acessories! Wanna be friends? Gladly (:

And ILY 亀梨和也 !
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• Must Haves
♥ A ________
♥ KAT-TUN album(s)
♥ Pass O Levels!
♥ Graduate with ALL of 4EC
♥ Singapore Poly!
♥ Go to Japan
♥ Meet KAME
♥ To be a successful AUTHOR

Bloody Monday DVD
Absolute Boyfriend DVD
KAT-TUN'S latest album
go to JE concerts!
Kame's Rayben's degreeless specs
brown contacts
Hiragana/Katakana/Kanji
Work in CM production
Twilight/New Moon/Eclispe/Breaking Dawn

♥ 18 February
KAME/TURTLE STUFF!
accessories accessories! :D
Japanese stuff ^.^v
BIG Turtle or Teddy
Green/Red converse shoes
A memorable birthday ^^

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1706 Sitieee's Bday dinner
1906 STUUDY!
2506 NAMMIE BDAY
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