Wednesday, February 07, 2007
♥ Aya shared her heart
helo maggots.ive had a hell of a day today.
ii really dont know what to feel right now.
im soo very confused.
ii cant believe it people.
ive actually lost you. of all people you.
you want to know the real reason.
why ii broke in class yesterday ? .
i'll tell you why. because it hurts to be acused.
of something like that. whats even worse.
BY YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND.
ii cant believe it. why would you do that ? .
you guys already know that im that close to him.
its just normal for us okayy ? . everyone knows we are.
you may think im being a total bitch right now.
if only you read my blog. see how ii really feel.
you would know the real me.
you said to just keep on wearing that mask right ? .
even that has a limit you know.
these tears are being kept from primary four.
now they really need to come out.
ii cant keep on keeping my emotions you know.
im just human. not a robot. ii have a heart too.
if what you said is true. then tell me.
ii was just as close to him when he was with Fateen.
they broke up long ago. but none acused me of anything.
and Fateen is still my good friend.
tell me now tell me true. was it really because of me ? .
and one more thing. a certain someone.
wants me to smile from the heart.
so ii will put that mask away.
youve hurt me deeply. ive seriously lost you.
but ii will keep on smiling no matter what happens.
ii smile because of one person. and ii smile for myself too.
this smile that you see is now and forever gona be real.
ii promised someone i'd smile. i'll keep that promise.
but of all the people ii lost you to.
ive lost you to her. ii cant tell you how much ii miss you.
i'll remember all the times. okayy i'll stop.
im crying. ii know im weak. ii need to get it out.
because ive just lost my best friend.
i'll miss you. goodbye.
AYESHA Y
