hello earthlings. ii was out the whole day. so therefore ii didnt update.
but now ii am. sooo. no difference. this post. right now.
is only advised to be read by people who understand it.
and to people who are not in a bad mood. cause this post.
would just make your mood even worse. soo then. here ii go.

ive really been thinking long and hard. about what happened.
was it really my fault ? . ii know its been pushed aside. but ii really wonder.
to have you say that in my face. your voice said it without a doubt in it.
since you were my bestiie. maybe you did mean it.
soo was it really my fault ? .
ii dont mean to say that you cant make new friends. of course you can.
everyone has a right to make new friends. durhh. but still.
you gave me an attitude. scratch that. you gave your OLD friends the attitude.
the 'OH IVE GOT NEW FRIENDS AND I DONT NEED MY OLD ONES' attitude.
if im the only one who thought so. then sue me. ii may be hallucinating.
but it wasnt only towards me. it was towards a bunch of people.
you told me once that those tears were fake. ii was putting up an act.
but thats just how much you know me. ZERO percent.
and you dare call me your bestiie ? . screw that ! . ii called YOU my bestiie ? .
seriously you should know im better than that ! .
and the one who backstabbed me was of all people YOU ! .
the one ii trusted and respected most in my life ! .
ii really thought you were a one of a kind friend. ii really did.

even though months has passed since this incident.
and that ii thought ii had gotten over it. it seems that ii havent.
you know that time. when our friendship was over.
my heart wouldnt believe it. ii cried thinking when ii was gonna wake up.
from that horrible nightmare. but those tears went to waste.
my eyes we a fucking swollen for a few days.
ii shall end this post now. Natt thankkiew for the advice.
maybe ii shouldnt be thinking t00 much.
ii end this post with a poem ii wrote last night. sorry if it sounds crappy.
from here on. Siti Aishah Bte Jamil is going on hiatus.
soo why not ii let that lame-arse loser emo Ayesha take over huh ? .
yeah. dont be surprised to see me like this for the next few days.
who knows ? . weeks ? . months ? . jeez.

tomorrow there is dumb Math trail. everyone's FORCED to come.
damn shit teachers. must wear PE shirt and stuffs.
Daniel and Me arent wearing ! . ahaah. we wear school uniform.
like he said. PAISEYY LARHS. haaha. hey ! .
if you dont wear it tomorrow. i'll kick your arse ! . haahaahaaha.
PE shirt suck dick for all ii care x) .

I was alone after you left.
But I soon came to realise that I had to forget.
It wasnt easy, no, it was down right hard.
Especially since you were the first one that I had met.
Our friendship was a work of art.
I had actually thought that it would last.
The care, the smiles and laughter.
You were the only friend that I trusted.
But alas dear friend, for you have broken that trust.
But I guess that in Friendship and Love.
There is no such thing as.
Happily Ever After.

AYESHA Y

I dont entertain no-lifes
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