greetings. now in computer lab after school.
doing some PW thingy. ShahFirman was supposed to go soccer.
but he didnt. sooo now im in the lab with Shidah Shah and Rahman.
the guys are making weird st000pid noises.
its like LOL much.
Math todayy was well.. ouhkayy. but ii dontt thinkk ii can pass.
not just yet. History. ahhh shake leg larhs. EASY. heehee.
school was rough. as usual.
dontt know who to go to anymore.
didnt talk to Abangg again too. im sorry Abang but.
ii wantt to. ii just really REALLY dontt dare to.
Shidah Nammy andd Nabilahh knows whyy.
its a fuckingg dream yes. but it really seems real. everythingg in it.
the words. your voice.
ii felt the pain whenn ii woke up too. on my cheeks. my arms..

im really scared to talk to youu. ii feel.. urghh.. ii dontt know.
andd ii fuckingg feel like startingg. ive told Nammy.
ii dontt know whats takingg overr me. ii really dontt.
my mind would be like 'Just go ahead with it'
but my heart goes 'C'mon youre better than this. dontt startt. dontt be stupid'
Nammy and Shidah also told me dontt.
theyy told me not to be stupid andd resort to these things.
ARGHHHHH. I DONT. KNOW. WHAT. TO. THINK. ANYMORE.
Abang ii apologise for these weeks.
ii know youu bingit at me for being bingit at youu. ii justt cantt help it.
andd NO ii dontt blame youu for anything if thats whatt youre thinking.
like ii saidd before. im justt mad at youuu cause youre destroying your own life.
nothingg more than that.

ive been emo-ing andd dayy dreamingg in class alot.
justt thinkingg alott. like ii said larhs.
negativityy makes me thinkk better. like it makes me realise things
andd ii mean ALOT of things. thenn whenn ii finally realise things.
well. it justt wakes me up BIG TIME.
cause. ii didnt know these things. these feelings.
these weirdness exsistedd. RIGHT. IN. FRONT OF. ME.
ii feel like an idiot. these re time ii wishh ii cann talk to Abangg.
but thenn..

I HOPE. I WISH. BUT IS IT ENOUGH? WILL IT COME TRUE?

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