hello. bad dayy. let me elaborate.
school. normal. miserable as always.
andd Nammy the thought is still in my mind.
anyway had NDP rehearsal. then went kickboxing.
before rehearsals. waited with Nammy.
ii started thinking. then well.. youu know the rest.
ended up with tears. called Amin.
wanted to talk to him. but he was on his way home.
soo ii didnt wanna bother beloved twin.
Nammy told me some things.
the more she told, the more negativity flowed.
and the more ii lost hope.
in you. in me. in life. ii wanted to end it all.
Nammy didnt let me jump from second floor.
people didnt let me die. soo. too bad Ayesha.

Met Nabilah. borrowed NP shirt.
she and Feeqah asked me to take care.
ii was daydreaming. car was in front of me.
but ii just walked. just inches away.
it horned. then ii woke up. ii WISH it DID hit me.
told Ralph what ii did. he scolded me.
then ii thinkk he told Abangg. he called me.
started asking me questions. got a scoldingg too.
AS IF YOU CARE. whatever. gave him attitude.
ii couldnt take it anymore. ii REALLY flared up.
ii gave him all my NEGATIVITY.
he retaliated. andd when he was speachless.
he just said 'alamak.. aku.. ahh tkpe. kau tk paham..' .
fine larhs. ive had enough.
i'll let you do whatever the fuck you want.
ii wont nagg at youu anymore.
ii wont scold youu anymore.
theres a price to that. i'll break my promise.
my promise of not doing stupid things.
but let me make one thing clear.
the decisions youu make.
the choices youu make to change or not.
its yours alone andd no one elses.
if youu wanna change. i'll still be an sms away from youu.
be reminded i'll only talk to My Abang andd no one else.

you guys know what its like? to loose someone.
who was like the brother you never had?
well ii do. ii have. the pain. its really unbearable.
ii dontt know how to put it in words.
seriously. the pain. its worse than death.
everythingg ive done for youu.
all ive saidd to youu. gone like that.
ii was justt wastingg my goddamnned time.
betul tak Daniel? kan aku da kate.
senang2 aku mampos. kau kan lagie bahagia?
whats the point of crying for someone.
who doesnt care about you?
you wontt even look at me. nor talk to me.
andd you justt heard that ii was thinking of suicide.
andd youu suddenly decided to care?
rightt.. whateverr. ive had enough crap from youu.
ii guess when youu told Ralph that youu wanted to stop.
ii guess youu were kinda too late.
ii dontt know what to believe anymore.
that are youu really willing to stopp?
cause negativity invaded my mind.
soo guys and girls. and especially DANIEL.
enjoyy the new me xD
call me.. Miss Negativity.
you guys will have Ayesha backk.
afterr she has her Abangg backk.
smiles used from now will be sarcastic smiles :)

LETS START OFF THE DAY WITH NEGATIVITY.

LOVE, AYESHA :)

Labels: MISS NEGATIVITY

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Im Ayesha and i keep pepper spray in my back pocket *smirk*

Im nice & fun, but test me & see how long the nice-ness last

I have awesome BFFs; GILERRS!

My J-friends call me Aya-chan & did i mention? Im a japanese-obsessed-girl :D

Obsession for turtles, a passion for writing & a love for ALL acessories! Wanna be friends? Gladly (:

And ILY 亀梨和也 !
KAT-TUN daisuki!
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• Must Haves
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♥ KAT-TUN album(s)
♥ Pass O Levels!
♥ Graduate with ALL of 4EC
♥ Singapore Poly!
♥ Go to Japan
♥ Meet KAME
♥ To be a successful AUTHOR

Bloody Monday DVD
Absolute Boyfriend DVD
KAT-TUN'S latest album
go to JE concerts!
Kame's Rayben's degreeless specs
brown contacts
Hiragana/Katakana/Kanji
Work in CM production
Twilight/New Moon/Eclispe/Breaking Dawn

♥ 18 February
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BIG Turtle or Teddy
Green/Red converse shoes
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