HELLO ):
yes hello kamuu. youu cann see the sadd smilie representingg me there.
ii lostt my mood todayy duringg recess aites?
so justt cut me some slack ouhkayy?
ii sat in 2NC againn. dayy-dreamedd mostt of the time.
FEEQAH. thanks for listening to me. andd all the advice youu gave me.
ii seriouslyy dontt know whatt id do withoutt youu darls.
listened to ear-blastingg music on Aidil's mp3.
haa it was nice. drowning sorrow in music.
ii haventt done that in quite sometime yea?

ii dontt know whyy ii feel this wayy. it mayy not seem like it.
like ii mean, we do talk. but somehow. ii know. ii cann feel.
we're alreadyy far apartt. unbearable. seriouslyy.
im havingg myy gut feelinggs all overr again.
andd like mostt of youu know. theyre always correct.
thats whatt im afraid of like rightt now.
ii justt get this weird feeling ouhkayy?
ahhhh ii know you'll be sayingg somethingg like this:
'oh Ayesha dont be so negative. oh nothing's gonna happen.
just stay positive and nothing will happen.
dont be so paranoid larhs.'
yeah. ii keep thinkingg that. but..
its justt a feelingg. it hasntt failedd me yet.
ii dontt thinkk anyone else but her understand whatt im feelingg now.
ii hope ii dontt do anythingg i'll regret anytime soon.
if ii survive to the end of the year, thenn im justt plain luckyy.
we're alreadyy far apartt. whatt happens if we driftt more?
if we do. thenn a few thinggs will happen. ii assure youu. negativityy is takingg control againn.
andd ii dontt have the strength to fightt it anymore.
soo if one dayy. we ended. these thinggs may happen:
- i'll start again. my dumb stuffs.
- i'll be differentt. like totally. youu guys wontt know its me.
- i'll neverr be the same. youu guys will hate me.
- i'll start.

ii justt.. ii dontt know. is there even a reason for me to live?
im justt a burdenn to everyone ii come in contact withh.
like well. whatever. im not me now.
so, the things ii said. well its justt me other self talkingg.
dontt worry too much. ii justt need time to thinkk.
ii justt need someone now.. but.. who?
another dayy ii see youu. my heart melts (:

SUFFERING IN SILENCE AGAIN. SOMEONE TO TALK TO. BUT WHO?

LOVE, AYESHA )))):

I dont entertain no-lifes
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honeylovers since 03.02.2009
No-life clan? Click.

Im Ayesha and i keep pepper spray in my back pocket *smirk*

Im nice & fun, but test me & see how long the nice-ness last

I have awesome BFFs; GILERRS!

My J-friends call me Aya-chan & did i mention? Im a japanese-obsessed-girl :D

Obsession for turtles, a passion for writing & a love for ALL acessories! Wanna be friends? Gladly (:

And ILY 亀梨和也 !
KAT-TUN daisuki!
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♥ KAT-TUN album(s)
♥ Pass O Levels!
♥ Graduate with ALL of 4EC
♥ Singapore Poly!
♥ Go to Japan
♥ Meet KAME
♥ To be a successful AUTHOR

Bloody Monday DVD
Absolute Boyfriend DVD
KAT-TUN'S latest album
go to JE concerts!
Kame's Rayben's degreeless specs
brown contacts
Hiragana/Katakana/Kanji
Work in CM production
Twilight/New Moon/Eclispe/Breaking Dawn

♥ 18 February
KAME/TURTLE STUFF!
accessories accessories! :D
Japanese stuff ^.^v
BIG Turtle or Teddy
Green/Red converse shoes
A memorable birthday ^^

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1906 STUUDY!
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FRIENDSTER

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PRINCESS D, FASHA, KHUZA, SYAZA

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