Sometimes i need to figure my life out.
Oh yes indeed every kid needs a new way out.
Then you make me see what its all about.
Its about the pleasure, of whatever.
Taking a break from this heavy life.
- Lukas Rossi, Drive


like HELLLOOOOOO.
sorry for not postingg for like abcd dayys. haa.
ii hated the mathh paperr. ii swearr ii HATE it like fuck.
anywayy FYE are kinda goingg ouhkayy soo farr.
really been studyingg myy ass off. ii mustt sayy it aint easyy.
soo like for the couple of days, ive like not been myself.
andd ii have mood swings like alott these days too.
ii startedd doingg Dumb things againn.
the otherr dayy chatted withh someone.
well, lets sayy we made promises to each otherr.
andd im tryingg my veryy bestt to heed the person's advice.
andd that was like to not thinkk too much.
its a damnn hard thingg thats for sure.
andd ii finally foundd out a wayy that keeps me distractedd from things.
id sit down. andd justt start readingg a book.
ii cann readd for 6 hours straightt ii cann tell youu that.
it does kinda help. but at the same time..
especially the recent book ii finished. the storyy was, well..
kinda like myy life. which made me thinkk more.
andd im getting less confident thatt ii cann be an authorr.
like. ii readd all these books andd ii thinkk to myself.
if ii really can write as good as these people.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. im loosingg confidence in myself.
ii dontt thinkk ii cann be an authorr. like OMG..
there goes my dreams.. like DAMNNNN.
maybe ii shouldd justt stopp dreamingg of beingg an authorr.
maybe im NOT cut out for it..
maybe ii really CANT write.. like.. sheesh.. *saddsadd*

andd these dayys. ii dontt know whyy. but..
ii somehow have this weird feelingg.
of justt wantingg to go to someone.
andd justt cryy my eyes out.
id justt feel soo damnn sadd for no reasonn..
like wtfh is happening to me..?
someone.. please justt tell me..
smile youu (:

IT HURTS BUT IT EASES MY PAIN. DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?

LOVE, AYESHA ))):

I dont entertain no-lifes
read, tag, be nice.
or Leave

honeylovers since 03.02.2009
No-life clan? Click.

Im Ayesha and i keep pepper spray in my back pocket *smirk*

Im nice & fun, but test me & see how long the nice-ness last

I have awesome BFFs; GILERRS!

My J-friends call me Aya-chan & did i mention? Im a japanese-obsessed-girl :D

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Bloody Monday DVD
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Kame's Rayben's degreeless specs
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Work in CM production
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