Well hello there. ive finally calmedd downn.
well.. forr now ii guess. soo like, ermm.
lets blogg before ii lose myy temperr. againn.
soooo like afterr a nightt of worryingg aboutt Crazee Partnerr.
she calledd me at aroundd 7am yesterrdayy.
hearingg herr voice made me relievedd uhs to know shes alrightt.
soo we talkedd andd she criteknn aboutt.. things. HAAA.
andd 10 seconds actionn was damnnnn funny larhs!
but sadlyy we hadd to hangg up as mum was naggingg.
LOL. she couldd like hearr the naggingg in the backkgroundd.
soo anyywayy. todayy. wentt to take passportt. yesahh.
thenn wentt shoppingg withh Amalia andd Elahh.
I FINALLY BOUGHTT NEW JEANS *BIGBIGSMILE*
andd it like costs errm.. $20? yeahh. cheap aye?
like Lukas Rossi sayys: Shop cheap, but look good.
andd btw. I MISS LUKAS ROSSI BADLYY *majorrbigsmile*

soo like. ive kinda been thinkingg alott. yes againn.
yeahh soo youu guys know whatt this means.
ii meann like, whenn ii startt thatt line.
Emo-Shit is comingg in like.. 5 seconds.
ive been livingg myy life a lie. A BIG FAT LIE.
whichh gets bigger byy the dayy. ii meann like look.
everyytime somethingg happens, ii will tell myselff.
'Dontt worryy. Everyythingg is gonna be alrightt'.
well, ii really mustt insistt thatt I AM SICK OF IT.
im really sickk of tellingg myselff thatt.
ii askk myselff whyy the hell ii tell myselff thatt.
andd its really because ii tryy to thinkk positivelyy.
but realityy checkk Ayesha. whats the use?
everyytime.. ii thinkk positivelyy yeahh thatts true.
but all myy positive thinkingg leads to onlyy one thingg.
andd its the excatt same thingg everyytime..
Its the factt of Beingg Let Downn.
ive been let downn soo manyy times. its uncountable.
andd its because of soo manyy thinggs.
too manyy thatt ii reallyy dontt wantt to elaborate..

youu mayy questionn me. ii know whatt youu mightt be thinkingg.
somethingg like 'Whats the big deal?' rightt?
well, how does it really feel to be let downn eveyy single time?
youu feel awful thatts forr sure.
like, youu haventt acomplisedd anyythingg despite yourr efforts.
andd all the positive thoughtts, disappearr *poof* like thatt.
ii justt wanna escape from EVERYYTHINGG these dayys.
cause like, everrytime ii conquerr myy problems.
all ii endd up withh are regrets andd more problems.
soo whats the use of conqueringg them more?
ii feel like runningg awayy from them andd maybe.
justt maybe theyll all go awayy somehow.
ii dontt know whatt the hell ii shouldd tell myselff anyymore.
ii dontt know whatt the hell to thinkk.
ii dontt know who ii am anyymore. andd thats scaryy.
like, if youu dontt know yourself, thenn who does?
but forr now. ii guess ii will justt pretendd.
thatts whatt ii notice mostt aboutt myselff these dayys.
im good at pretendingg that everyythingg is alrightt.
im good at givingg fakes smiles andd laughhs andd no one will notice.
like ii toldd Crazee Partnerr. mayybe this is whyy im takingg literature.
cause im good at actingg? or maybe cause ii cann let everyythingg out?
oh crapp. i cantt comprehendd halff the things ii justt saidd.
do youu?
Song Of The Day: If I Fall, Amber Pacific.

BEING LET DOWN.. SUCKS. BIG TIME.

LOVE, AYESHA ))))): *tearstears*

PS: to Crazee Partnerr-ku.
if youu have anyy problems youu know im here.
like ii know, the stuff at home andd all sucks aye?
dontt hesitate to give me a call ouhkayy?
ILYY.

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