HELLO! greetinggs people! (:
well, this postt is dedicatedd to someone.
(since ii dontt have a private, i'll blogg it here.)
whom ii do not wishh to mentionn.
but well, ii love herr dearlyy too.
so dearr friendd this is forr youu.

firstt off. ive known all the thinggs. mostt of it in factt.
the thinggs youu toldd otherr people aboutt me.
one byy one came to tell me whatt youu saidd.
but ii didntt do anyythingg aboutt it.
ii actedd, well, normal ii couldd sayy.
ii dontt reallyy get madd aboutt gossips, or rumours aboutt me.
im weirdd aye? seriouslyy ii dontt give a damnn.
cause whyy? ii have betterr thinggs to do thann get into a tiff.
withh these people thatt spreadd rumours aboutt me.
or in ourr terms, statingg factts. andd in case youre wonderingg.
youu hadd the label bestt girl friendd to me. but ii guess it all changedd.
whenn ii couldntt tell youu anyymore feelinggs or secrets of mine.
cause, it mightt become rumours yknow?
friendship, as yknow, is aboutt trustt. andd well.
at the veryy leastt. ive not revealedd anyy of yourr secrets.
not now, not everr. example one.
someone askedd forr yourr private nyerr blogg.
person x wantedd to read it.
askedd me to give myy pass andd everyythingg.
so person x couldd see it at leastt once. ii, of course, delinedd.
andd youve at leastt noticedd the change in me towards youu?
cause at times, ii do avoidd youu at times. ii apologise sincerlyy.
but it justt a natural reactionn youu get from someone.
whenn she knows a close friendd is talkingg behindd herr backk.
like ii saidd, im differentt. ii dontt like to create tiffs.
andd make suchh small matters like this, become utterlyy huge.
andd well the guyy thingg? im sorryy if ive offendedd youu.
yes, im close withh guyys. ii grew up withh practicallyy guyys.
its myy nature. ii cantt change it aites?
the two friendds thingg? cann ii sayy thatt.
insteadd of statingg facts aboutt me.
tryy yourr hardestt to make amendds withh them.
ii was like thatt, withh Dewi rememberr?
yeahh. ii didntt quite forgive herr.
at firstt. but thenn, afterr a long periodd of time. ii realisedd thatt.
ii do miss herr heaps andd in the endd, we did reconile rightt?
it takes a long periodd of time, yes. but it takes yourr hardestt effortt.
andd yourr heartt andd soul to do it.

andd aboutt the issue regardingg myy Brotherr. well ii cann sayy.
youre the firstt to notice! haha. gladd someone does.
anyywayy. iknow thatt since like, foreverr larhh.
did youu everr thinkk ii didntt notice? ii did. ii was sadd yeahh.
but heyy, yknow me. keepingg thinggs to myself. puttingg an actt.
its justt me. andd no, ii didntt tell it to anyyone else.
to put it in a wayy, ii justt blockedd thatt factt.
withh otherr positive factts. kireknn ii was in denial larhh. paham?
the homeworkk? well, thatts myy faultt. cause whenn.
youu, Shasha andd Atikahh were absentt.
ii DID collectt workk forr youu.
go askk Miss Norayu. justt thatt im belo enoughh to keepp yourrs.
andd Shasha's in myy mathh file andd handedd it up to teacherr.
Atikah's was underr myy table.
thatts whyy ii couldd give herr the nextt dayy.
so technicallyy thatt was myy faultt. ii apologise.
andd technicallyy. ii haventt beenn absentt have ii?
dontt youu thinkk iknow thatt myy brotherr is like thatt to me?
its these kindds of personal thinggs, thatt ii dontt tell to anyyone.
not evenn tellingg him aboutt it.
andd PS: ii feel like a TOTAL burden to him.
cause well, im persistentt aboutt him stoppingg yknow whatt.
not doingg yknow whatts andd all.
andd ii feel inferior towardds YOUU guyys.
Atikahh, youu andd whoeverr larhh. cause basicallyy youu guyys do.
the thinggs he loves to do. while all ii do is lecture him aboutt them.
so ii feel thatt he likes youu guyys more thann me. geddit?
ii feel like total crapp inside cause ii cantt get whatt ii sayy.
into his headd. andd thatt he turns on death earrs.
andd of the factt thatt ii cantt share problems andd all those.
sillyy-crappyy momentts withh him anyymore.
myy solutionn? act as thoughh it doesntt botherr me one bit.
whenn its shreddingg me up inside forr the pastt monthhs.

the NPCC Perthh thinggy? well ii do apologise too.
cause ii was justt to excitedd to know.
andd youu thinkk Sirs andd Ma'ams dote on me?
HAHA! well, youve got it wrongg. youu seriouslyy dontt know.
whatt talkks andd expectationns theyy give me.
GODD. its hardd to keepp up withh theyre expectationns.
if ii were youu, id be gladd ii werentt presidentt *pffftttt*
people hate me. thatts theyre decisionn. ii reallyy couldntt care less.
its basedd on theirr opinionn andd so calledd 'facts' aboutt me.
thatt makes theyre decisionn to like or hate me.
afterr all this, once againn from myy heartt.
ii apologise if ive everr put hate in yourr heartt towards me.
andd if ive offendedd youu in anyywayy. its justt thatt sometimes.
in factt, if all the while, youu knew whatt ii was thinkingg.
whatt myy true feelinggs are.
well, youdd probbablyy thinkk differentlyy.
well, those true feelinggs are not to be revealedd larhh.
not to anyyone on this Earthh. cause, theyre mine.
andd heyy! ILYY too aites? cherio (:

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